The handsome poet turned to me, “You believe in sanity, don’t you?” His smile was a kind of smirk. We were sitting in Le Figaro café at MacDougal and Bleecker Street in New York City drinking Constant Comment tea.
I frowned. What a question. My mouth dropped open in shock. I felt as if I had been intellectually slapped. Well, I was in my mid-twenties and new to Greenwich Village. He was a brooding, blue-eyed, thirty year old. I wanted to impress him, but I had been minted in middle-class Indiana in the mid-fifties. I was a good girl with no sophistication. I had never even heard of Constant Comment tea. Was I stupid to “believe in sanity?” Is that something one actually believes in anyway? All I said to him was, “Uh, yeah. Don’t you?”
But I never forgot that moment or that question. Now more than 50 years later, I’m still pondering it. I think there’s a shit load of insanity going on right now. Do I still believe in sanity? Yes. But what is it?
Well, after many years of living, here’s my answer to that gorgeous but smug poet:
To me, sanity is being present in one’s body, owning all one’s feelings without projecting them onto anyone or anything else.
Insanity is not being present and lashing out of anger or hurt or fear.
Sanity is telling the truth simply and directly without attack.
Insanity is lying.
Based on what I believe sanity is, I have no choice but to declare our present President insane.